Contents

Foreword
The Road Best Traveled: Get Ready for the Judgment Day by Bob Richter 

Preface
How I Wrote a Book about How I Could Not Write a Book about My Life in the Sex Biz

I.       Why I Lived Out the Sexual Revolution in the Basement
     1.      Growing Up Kinky I: How I Learned about Sex
     2.      Why I Had Insomnia at Age 13
     3.      Growing Up Kinky II: Sex Games
     4.      Bald Joel and the Big Bell
     5.      Why I Lived Out the Sexual Revolution in the Basement, and the Night the Parties Ended
     6.      Master, Bill, and Leslie: A Tale of Love, Loss, and Submission
     7.      Kidnapped and Kept: A Fantasy of Forced Submission
     8.      A Sexual Evolution: From Sex Slave to Dominatrix

II.      The Day I Decided to Sell Hope
     1.      Why I Lead S&M Support Groups
     2.      Confessions of an S&M Group Leader
     3.      After the Party
     4.      The Day I Decided to Sell Hope
     5.      The Neglected Ingredient: A Love Story
     6.      A Brief Moment in Time: One Recollection of Sexual Domination

III.     Enemas, Dildos, Penises, and More Penetrating Sexual Insights
     1.      Masochism: His and Hers by Dr. Roy F. Baumeister
     2.      The Enema Within: Confessions of an Anal Addict
     3.      Submissive Women Speak Out
     4.      The Princess Is a Poet
     5.      The Facts about Male Sexual Submission
     6.      Hugo the Dildo and Other Penetrating Sexual Insights by Mistress Kali Ward
     7.      How and Why a Nice Jewish Girl Created a Naughty Poem about the Penis

IV.     Sex and Absurdity: Our “Vanilla” World
     1.      S&M on Talk Radio
     2.      Turning On to Phone Sex: The Other Side of the Story
     3.      Dominatrix Takes on Dr. Laura: An S&M Rebuttal
     4.      My Mom the Dom: Mother Wields a Whip by Deborah Anne Miller
     5.      Sex and Absurdity: The Arrest of Mistress Mikey and Society’s Policing of Human Longings
     6.      Interlude: Carter Stevens on the Sex Industry
     7.      A Dominatrix Dies in New York City and a Seven-Year-Old Story of Police Abuse

V.     You Are Not Alone
     1.      Masochism: An Alternative Intimacy by Dr. Roy F. Baumeister
     2.      Looking for Mistress Goodbar: How to Find Your Very Own Dominatrix
                 a.  Love on the World Wide Web by Sera Miles
                 b.  Beyond Boundaries: Cutting-edge Sexual Support in a New World by Sera Miles
     5.      Phone Fantasy Etiquette: How to Be a Hit with the Telephone Girls
     6.      How to Start Your Own S&M Support Group
     7.      Beyond Midnight: How to Talk to a Sadomasochist

Appendix A: A Dose of Sexual History
     A History of Sexual Support Groups—According to Hearsay, Rumor, Folklore, Written Documentation, and My Somewhat Questionable Memory (1950s through Early 1997)

Appendix B: Orgy for the Kinky Bibliophile
     Annotated Bibliography and References for Further Reading

Appendix C: An Invitation
     The PEP Support Group Philosophy

Acknowledgments
     Together—Then, Now, and Tomorrow: A Meditation on Gratitude

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